Kaleidoscope Confessions

It's been a while since I've posted anything. School has become so very stressful as we all dash to finish with only 1 week of classes left and then finals. My teachers are handing out study guides for our 100+ question finals, I have to get my schedule for next year, regular homework, projects, concerts fir band, there is just so much to do and I have no time left. UGH!!!! Well I'm almost there, then I can let my brain rot until July when I need it again. Lately my friends and I have been eating lunch outside. It's lovely, but the thing about the New Mexico sun is that it's really intense. So I've been getting sun burnt. A lot. And today my math teacher told me to stop day  dreaming. Good luck with getting me to do that.

I wrote what I was thinking the other day, and this is what I came up with. I wrote it like a letter. It's kinda girly and dumb....

"Kaleidoscope Confessions."

 

Dear You,

Your green eyes make me nervous,

Your dark hair grabs at my attention,

Your smile lets me see

How perfect you are.

You're funny and smart,

Nice and caring,

Real and my best friend,

You stand by me,

To pull me back down to Earth.

Clumsy, silly, messy us,

Made me question everything we were,

When you kissed me

At the stroke of midnight,

Like were were standing

In the sprinklers,

Of fairy tale's drive way.

And you held me,

Arms wrapped around mine,

Lightly touching skin,

Fingers intertwined.

You whispered how it was going to be okay,

When I was afraid of what was before us.

And you laughed,

A light hint,

Letting me know you cared.

We were playful,

Teasing and wrestling,

Where you'd always win,

And I'd always deny it.

You fucked with my head,

My thoughts were unclear,

Day dreams grabbed me by the wrist,

Pulling me to where ever you were.

But after I closed the door goodnight,

We watched the back of our hands,

As nothing else happened,

And we wore awkward

Around our necks. 

That was it,

Never spoken out loud,

About what had happened.

You left me in a state in the past,

As you attempted another trial

To swoon my friend number seven.

Apparently,

You should never give up on something,

If you really want it.

But what if it doesn't want you back?

So,

I wont call it giving up,

It'll be a road trip

Away from that one night,

I'll send our friendship post cards,

I'll sign all of them

With a question and a Statement,

And End it with,

Sincerely Yours<3